• 9:46:00 PM, Tuesday, October 10, 2006
WHEEEEE!!!!
It's FINALLY OVER!
Man..it's definitely good...
But, not that I feel it YET.
And that's quite bad
Considering the fact that if I take a few days to get 'the feeling', by then it might be like almost next week and there's...
the deadly..
dreadful..
RESULTS!
Which I seriously do not wanna get back.
Argh.
I can tell. It kinda sucks.
And I'm NOT happy about it..
I'm just glad it's all over.
Cos I'm almost reaching my limits there.
Felt so detached from life, you know...
Oh wells..
And...
my birthday didn't even FEEL like my birthday can!
Sad...:(
I just went out to eat lunch with my family
and I'm back home again,
at my table,
with my notes,
studying...
What else is new...
It was pretty off thoughI received like 30 over messages throughout the day..
btw..THANKS GUYS! EVERYBODY WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:)
Love you guys all so much!<3>
And whee! my dearest sister posted her pressie over! hahaha..
It's a ballerina poster:) I'll put the picture up when it's taken.
Haha I'm too lazy to do it now:p
Yay! I can't wait for Sunday!:)
It's out to Vivo City!
With the gamma hc:)
hehs..
It's really time we get to enjoy ourselves a lil' ehs?
Cut ourselves a little slack..
Yeah, that'll be great no? :p
Rachel!! Haha miss her so much can! Haven't talked to her in like AGES.
Seriously.
And while she was there ENJOYING her post exams period,
poor us at TJ still had to study..
So yesterday it was a 2 and a 1/2 hour chat on the phone! Lol.
It was really nice catching up:)
There was so many things to talk about. Haha.
Oh like your 200K broom in Flyff:p hahaha.
Whee...love ya:)
The long chat with Jazreel and Zheya at Sakae for like 2 hours, was good too.
Haha ya, basically we just sat there for 2 hours, chatting.
We hardly ate! So little...
Mostly we talked. About so many things!
Haha. It was pretty fun..
Can't blame us, there was really nothing much to do at tm..
Besides, a movie was probably too tiring we might just fall asleep inside the cinema. Lol.
One thing we talked about quite a bit was..
cheerleading..
Yes. It brought back like so many memories!
Of all the practices we had.
Having to spend afterschool periods at trainings whether in school or outside
Having to wake up at 7 on saturday mornings to go Bedok Stadium for trainings.
All that falling downs.
All that challenges we had while doing stunts.
All that tension we had when we just couldn't do stunts up.
All those happy times we had, laughing as a team.
All those times we really bonded as one.
......
And of course,
Just that one time I managed to do stunts up for every stunt I did for the WHOLE routine..
After which the next time I tried to do it,
I fell.
Painfully.
Although at that instant it was the back of my head and my back that was hurting,
what really hurt in the end was inside of me...
Many people might not be aware.
But it was devastating not being able to perform for the competition on sports day.
And really be part of the winning ecstatic-ness..
Even though I'm still part of the team,
It isn't the same.
It just isn't..
Some say,
"But you got to do the routine during sports carnival!"
But no,
it still isn't the same.
Cos they used the new routine.
And no,
I didn't get to do the stunts I trained so much for.
So much effort into them.
So many falling down and overcoming the fear of falling and going up once more.
Cheerleading has been an experience for me.
And I don't know.
Just cos of that accident which seemed unforgivable,
I most probably would not have the chance to do it ever again.
No, next year's not gonna be cheerleading.
It's gonna be some shit mass dance competition from what I heard.
Which I might add, is stupid.
The peak of sports day is cheerleading.
And now, it's scraped.
Dance competition? sports day?
NO LINK!
I don't know, talking about cheerleading again yesterday just made me a lil' emo I guess.
Remembering all the times.
And how much I actually miss it.
I miss the feeling of accomplishment when you finally manage to do stunts up with your bases.
Speaking of which I am grateful for my bases Ee Pin and Joel la. They worked very hard too.
Wells, it was just like reminiscing the times.
And really, I do miss it.
I feel like doing it all over again...
But most probably, I wouldn't have the chance ever......
How I wiah for everything to go back to how it used to be...
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